LizNDale
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Joined: 16 May 2008
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Location: River Falls, WI
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 Posted: Sun Sep 07, 2008 10:55 pm Post subject: My Mom's (Cindy) Statement of Faith |
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12 very short, and very long weeks ago, the weekend after mom’s diagnosis, she came up to the cabin with Dale and me. She loved it up there, and managed to get up there a few times during this journey.
She told me she wanted to dictate a letter to me, an answer to a note she had received from a dear friend. A question was asked in this note that had mom thinking an awful lot about her faith, and she dearly wanted to write about it but was no longer able.
I wanted to share with you this statement of my mom’s faith, her response to her friends heartfelt question “…why can God change a persons life so quickly, I don’t understand.”
This is what she directed me to say:
“I have to say that I truly do not feel that God gave me this cancer. What God gave me is what God gave you and all of my children - he gave us life and freedom to choose.
He blessed me to be born in this wonderful country and beautiful state, and he blessed me with the most loving husband in the world and the dearest children, wonderful friends, my church family, my Lake Superior and a great life.
I can't blame anybody or anything for what is happening to me. I'm afraid stewing about it will only poison me, and I refuse to let that happen.
The only way I can move forward is to be content with the love and support I have ahead of me.
My goal and prayer for myself is to find strength and courage to live my life free of bitterness and self pity - God loves me and will help me.
Sometimes we just have to wait for his answer.
I dictated this to Liz, and after having it read back to me, I'm asking myself if I really believe this or if this is what I feel I SHOULD believe. And I've decided it is what I believe, but that since I'm human it's something I have to strive and work for. And I do that with prayer, asking Him for patience, courage and strength. These are the prayers I KNOW he'll answer, for all of us. The trick is to remember to ask.”
I know I don’t have to tell you, she was an incredible lady. As I said in the update I sent on Aug 8th, “I wish I could convey to you all how fiercely this incredible lady wants to fight this, how little self pity she has, how strong her faith is, how truly brave she is. I have always thought my mom was something special, but she is teaching me lessons I never knew needed to be taught. She is truly phenomenal; I am absolutely humbled by her. I am so proud of her, it hurts. What do I want to be when I grow up? Exactly like my mom.”
In loving memory of my mom, Cindy, Jan 28th 1929 - Sept 7th, 2008
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My Mother - Stage IV NSCLC - Adenocarcinoma
Mets to Adrenal Glands and Brain
Diagnosed Thursday June 12th 2008
Died Sunday September 7th 2008
Her Story:
http://cancerforums.net/about9639.html
Her Statement of Faith Memorial:
http://cancerforums.net/viewtopic.php?t=10528 |
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. You are in my heart and prayers.