cant stand this waiting any longer.....any advice

dawn39

hello its been a dreadful 9 weeks of pure fear and waiting, i really cant stand this any longer it is really affecting me so badly mentally, that i am just not functioning anymorefinally had my lymph node biopsied on thursday have to wait two to three weeks for results. cany anyone tell me this, i have been feeling very very hot, usually my head for 8 weeks now like a constant boiling flushing feeling been taking my temperature which seems to follow a pattern of mid 36 from morning to afternoon than increases to 37 to 37.4 afternoon to mid evening than gradually comes back down to mid to high 36. have been told that this is not a fever i am really worrying about these feelings but have been told that ithe anxiety i am feeling at the moment is causing this and also the dreadful tiredness i am experiencing. i am so very very frightened and feel like i am going mad with fear. i am seeing a therapist who says he is 99.9 certain that i am manifesting these symptoms myself due to the extreme anxiety, i hope that he is right because i dont think i can face the alternative after reading peoples experiences of non hodgkins and the treatments that are involved i think that anyone who is going through this is so brave and my heartfelt best wishes go out to all of you. thank you for reading. dawn Sad

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i have been ill for two years now and am awaiting a biopsy on an enlarged node. i have been told by many doctors that there is nothing wrong and it is all in my head, so now even my family believe this i feel hopeless and very scared/

fmdrivegirl

Hey Dawn! Sorry to hear that you are so anxious....I was under the impression that you were around my age. I am currently experiencing early menopause (have no idea why - genetic maybe...LOL). The flush and "fever" sound exactly like hot flashes. Maybe something you should look into.
Otherwise, remember that anger and fear are wasted emotions until you know what you are dealing with. Hopefully, in two weeks, you'll have all the answers you will need.
I hope you can get a grip on the fear - it will drive you crazy....Did you try reading - a novel not the cancer forums.......Some form of exercise?
Anyway, I hope you let us know how your biopsy goes. YOu are in my thoughts.....Take care.
Fm Drive Girl

dawn39

hello thanks for your reply, no one else seems to bother.
i am 38 have been tested for menopause, came back negative im afraid wish it was. i use to enjoy reading but can rarely concentrate for long enough now. as for excercise i am just to tired and feeling to bloody hot all the time. just keeping up with the daily jobs inc children seems too much at the moment. find it impossible to forget as feeling so unwell all the time, have joined a chatroom (uk) for anxiety sufferers it helps, they are so incredibly supportive. i am so pleased for you that your father seems to be ok, but have you found out what the problem is yet?

thank you
dawn
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i have been ill for two years now and am awaiting a biopsy on an enlarged node. i have been told by many doctors that there is nothing wrong and it is all in my head, so now even my family believe this i feel hopeless and very scared/

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