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dawn39
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 Posted: Sun Sep 18, 2005 10:44 am Post subject: any help would be appreciated. |
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please if any one can give me any help i would be so grateful.
i have posted a few times in the last few weeks while i have been going through this horrible time and just dont know how i can cope any longer with this awful feeling of not knowing.
i have had an enlarged lymph node on lhs of neck and smaller one on rhs for at least a year, could have been longer, doesnt seem to have got much bigger largest one probably about an inch or so. started to worry about it a couple of months ago as been unwell with stomach problems for 2 years no diagnosis. started to get almost constant feeling of fever about 7 weeks ago mainly my head just feels unbearably hot temp fluctuates throughout the day from 36.2 in the morning steadily rising to 37 in afternoons and sometimes rises to 37.5 at the highest for short amount of time then starts to go down again. i also have spots on top of back and neck, could even just be acne i dont know and also back of neck feels sweaty sometimes. i hope that i am wrong but absolutely petrified after reading symptoms for nhl . been in constant state of fear and anxiety for 8 weeks now seeing the surgeon tomorrow to see if he will remove and biopsy as the haemotologist said he may even not do it. i just need some answers this has gone on to long now . thank you for taking the time to read this.
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i have been ill for two years now and am awaiting a biopsy on an enlarged node. i have been told by many doctors that there is nothing wrong and it is all in my head, so now even my family believe this i feel hopeless and very scared/ |
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fmdrivegirl
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| Posted: Mon Sep 19, 2005 7:04 am Post subject: Wish I knew more Dawn39 |
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Hello my love. I really urge you to continue seeking medical treatment. I don't know how old you are but I am familiar with what you are saying about the waiting. My dad was over 2 years before they found a pancreatic cancer. Not to say that yours is - there are so many complications in the human body!
My thoughts are with you and I hope you get the info you need soon. Please, try not to be so scared - its a waste of emotion until you know what you are dealing with.
If I can help or you just wanna chat, let me know on this chatline. I will do whatever I can. I'm in much the same boat except its happening to my dad.
Keep your chin up lovely;
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dawn39
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| Posted: Mon Sep 19, 2005 12:36 pm Post subject: Re: any help would be appreciated. |
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thank you for your kind words, i certainly need the m at the moment. the problem is , because i have been undiagnosed for two years and the doctors have been unable to find anything i have been told that it is the usual health anxiety/hypochondriac as i am a women of 38, because i have lost a lot of weight i have also been accused of being anorexic, now my family have even started to believe that this may in fact be a anxiety problem, and this has caused me so much anger i cannot even be in the same room as my husband anymore . the only anxiety that i am suffering if as a direct result of being ill for two years and constantly having to prove that this is not a phsycological problem. i am now so frightened as i finally got to see the surgeon today whol felt the enlarged gland and got straight on the phone and booked me in for biopsy on thursday, it is monday today, i have to go in for xrays ect on wednesday. and can you believe it when i got home my family still wont accept it and said "he is only doing it dto put your mind at rest, i just lost my temper completely and now as a result have no one to come with me on wednesday and thursday as the way i feel at the moment i dont particularly want them there either. sorry to go on but i am just feeling so alone and frightened as am now 100 percent sure that i have some form of non hodgkins disease. thank you again for listening dawn
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fmdrivegirl
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| Posted: Mon Sep 19, 2005 1:45 pm Post subject: Girl - look after yourself first! Dawn 39 |
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Hey girlie!
you know what they say, you can PICK your friends.....LOL. Please try and remember that you know your body better than anyone. If the Dr. made an appointment for a biopsy - I'm sure it was for more than to ease your mind. He wants to know what is causing this. All I can say is - again - be aggressive in finding your answers with the medical folk. No matter who is right overall - there is something wrong. Your priority is to look after you. Your family will have to deal with the Dr.'s reality in the end.
Anger is a wasted emotion. Right now, please - do everything the dr. suggests. As well, not to meddle, try not to discuss this with your immediate family. Refrain from arguing with them. Just say that we'll see when the results come back. Thanks for your support in this matter.
That will give everybody a way to NOT argue and tell you what they think. Hope that is not too forward cause families are a personal thing.
As for being afraid - of course you are. You're a young woman. Cancer is scary but has become such a big part of today's society. It always seems to be the first, gut reaction. Again, I'm urging you to wait. It is hard and it does suck but it's the way of the world.
As well, please don't compare yourself to the others here. Maybe, god willing, they will find out what's wrong and what is making you ill. Then, they will fix it. That's what you need to think about now. No matter what happens - YOU will KNOW what is going on. Keep that in the back of your head.
As for the anxiety - I can tell you what I do. Because of what I do for a living (broadcaster), nobody is allowed to know when I'm having a bad day. I try to pull up a memory that brings me some sort of joy. Everyone in the world has at least one!! Find that memory and just think about it for awhile. Or, get a good book to occupy your mind: something that really grabs you.
Anyway, you are in my thoughts. I'm sending you my wishes for good news and soon. Take care;
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