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PostPosted: Fri Mar 21, 2008 4:07 pm    Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- Reply with quote

Ok-

I recieved a text message on my phone from this guy. He wanted to catch up online, So to do it safely, i opened another account (with help of course- hopeless), so I could easily ban or delete this acount, if i needed to. Plus would also keep our regular e-mail and address secure.

We started talking, he he start hitting onto me- he hadn't changed, a real ladies man. But being older and more mature, It has become more sleezy.

Matt wasn't happy with this decsion to talk with him, matt felt i should have just personally e-mails all he girls on this guys myspace. I couldn't do that, how awful to find out that way...

We got talking about my girlfriend and his friend and whats been happening the last few years. Then about that night. He rembered.....Anyway long story short. I told him. With some insults, some hard truths, some mean and awful words. He says- "nope, you have the wrong person, mate." I explain to him, that it must be a shock- and why i wanted him to know, and how I know 100% it was him. How i wasn't placing any blame- but how it had Caused my cevical Cancer, and how dangerous it is for a women to contract...

Well, like i said abusive and extream words later. I siad For him to get checked, if not for me- then himself, and every other female out there. He told me he is clean...( how can this be?????) He said he had a full check up before he had a serious relationship with a girl, and was cleared, that was a few years ago....

well, what can i say? Just that I had it, got from him 10 years ago, and to keep checking and keep safe....

Crying or Very sad - definatly a dark place right now. Would I have done it again- sure. Even if it is just a seed in his mind, or makes him think about it, I would have saved someone, well, maybe.
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PostPosted: Fri Mar 21, 2008 4:15 pm    Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- Reply with quote

Matt came to me and held me and let me cry my eyes out, He asked did I find closeure?. I think I did. Even if it didn't turn out the way I had hoped it would.. But what was I expectiong???? A thank you? A i'm so sorry? A little aknowledge for what had happen back then???

He did know what happened was wrong, and said sorry to that. But that was as close to a sensitive persore he could get.

Anyway.
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PostPosted: Wed Mar 26, 2008 9:43 am    Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- Reply with quote

OMG- (oh, my, God!)

What is wrong with me lately???? Must be an extrao does og hirmaones.
I was sound asleep- for once. Went to bed supper early- was tired, back acheing- the works. Maybe more mentally tired.

woke now 1.30Am crying. You know those unattractive, sobbing your eyes out. The ones when No movie would do. The red nosed, messey loud crying. Well I was doing that.... total mess. My dream was so real- I have such realistic dreams sometimes. Normally when on meds for back - or alot of stress...

So of course what do you do at this hour... Write here. Don't think I'll put up here- only because i'll be a mes again (Family- can't live without them...can't choose them...Can't live with them.)

Confused
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PostPosted: Sat Mar 29, 2008 10:16 pm    Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- Reply with quote

^^ what type of drugs was she on ^^ i want some Wink hehehe

Well had a Gormett (inside bbq/grill/ entertainment eating) You sit this thing in the middle of the table and everyone cooks their own bits and pieces. Weather chicken, meat, eggs, sausage, vegies , garlic bread, prawns...etc. Everone has their own little area, and grill stations.

Anyway Mum, Dad, Jen (foster girl) and us three. Had a great night. Wine, food, great talk, and Hunter entertaining us all.



Today- Took Hunter to the park, there is a little childrens bike park area. It has tracks of peebles and dirt, and smoothe roads. It has road signs and little speed bumps. Hunter looked adorable, chasing the little girls. Wink
He has a blue motorbike (look alike) that he pushes flat out then lifts his legs and glides, like a real motor bike. He loves this to death...I'm not looking forward to when it dies...

Hunter is also teething again, red cheek, and very irritable. When do they stop teething?????? Apparently these are ment to be two year old molers... He has alot of trouble, as he has cross cut all teeth. This tooth coming up is his 1st year one- trying to push in between other teeth....
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PostPosted: Mon Mar 31, 2008 3:55 am    Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- Reply with quote

Had a great day today. Droped Hunter off at nanny's and did the shopping. Was sooo good. Hunter is pretty good when down the street. but still it's hard to do grocerys, by half way he is ready to go. So today i got to look at products, read a lable, remember my list.... And was happy to waiting at a register, reading a mag.

Though this is not good on the wallet. Wink Came home with more than one impluse buy.
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PostPosted: Tue Apr 01, 2008 9:08 am    Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- Reply with quote

Inica, glad you are having some good days Smile.
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PostPosted: Fri Apr 04, 2008 6:17 pm    Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- Reply with quote

Had a shit day yesterday.

Had 4, yes 4! - full body massages IN A ROW! (thats 4 and a half hours straight, of hard physical labour, never mind the back.

I kind of cracked. My job-share college, offered to come in and do one- I jumped at the chance. Th Boss wasn't happy about it. But it was that or I'd have to rebook them...Anyway. As T (wont say full name) was doing my 3rd massage, (i was ment to have a break before the next one) The boss booked in some waxing with me- which was ok. But as the beauty rooms are 3x3 it's tiny and small, with a big beauty bed in each room (2 of them). They have a sliding door in the middle to seperate them. The rooms are tiled, so we don't usueally like to work the two rooms as the sound travells really bad.

Well the waxer I had, knew we had to be quite, due to massage- the only way I would do her waxing.. But lets just say, here 1 year old didn't. She screemed the place down for 8 min... That loud that at the front of the Salon- ummm. 25 metres away, Could hear...

So do the next Massage and thats when the Jack Hammering nextdoor starts... Twisted Evil So at the end of the massge I offer a free complementry service- my ladie has to go, in a hurry to App. so I give her a Gift voucher to come back- tiny free, cost nothing gift voucher- but you guessed it, the boss had a massive heart attack and hit the roof about it....

Then my fourth massage didn't show. I rang her mobile and left a message. The go to have lunch 3.45. The boss comes charging out back and says "what are you doing" me:having something to eat- (had heat pack on back- it was killing me) boss: well there is a eyebrow wax down the front waiting for you. (a walkin) me: the look- of i don't give a flying shit... so off i go to do it. The boss says after- you need a holiday.. me : like you really think????? (been asking for months)

so at 4.30 I had nothing in, no one waiting - i say to the boss. Well, I'm off to lunch- see you next week. And walked out. Shocked


**Then I came home to hear that the Women I told you back a few weeks ago- who Had cevical cancer has been given a week to live- they opened her up and re sewed her. She's in alot of pain. Crying or Very sad

**The i head out to my parents house to have a spa- and it's been set at 20'C (bloody freezing- since the wind out side is 7'C... brrrrrr) I come home had a fight with Matt- My fault.

He has his cousin coming over tomorrow night- (Tonight- Sat) and he is siting on computer while watching t.v. and nothing is done. So I start to moan and groan and bitch and get on "my high and mighty".

We get pretty heated and then He starts to "Wrestle" me... So i kick arse. Wink hehehe BUT i popped a vein in my knee, and hurt my back... So i put heat on both- Now my knee is like a ballon, and black. ouch!.

(NOTE: You DON'T put heat on veins or brusing!!! )- like Duh Embarassed
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PostPosted: Fri Apr 04, 2008 6:19 pm    Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- Reply with quote

In my defense- it was sore and was hurting really bad- didn't realise a busted vein till after. (varicose- grape like) Shocked
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PostPosted: Sun Apr 20, 2008 8:02 am    Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- Reply with quote

hi everyone- sorry still kicking- just have alot going on.

(news about M.. Still holding on, Drugged out, asleep/unconsious/not there...)
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PostPosted: Sun Apr 20, 2008 9:16 am    Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- Reply with quote

It is good to hear from you, In... even if things are not always going well. Glad to hear that you are still kicking Very Happy.
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PostPosted: Fri May 02, 2008 6:05 pm    Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- Reply with quote

Ok- All- I'll be doing some long posts tonight and over this week. Getting myself organinsed to be a better Admin- pppfffft. lol

See you all soon
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