Failed 2 screenings

virbius · Posted: Mon Nov 22, 2004 6:34 pm Post subject: Failed 2 screenings

Okay, I still have a lot of work to do with the Doctors, but I am really wondering if it is worthwhile. I has a slightly elevated PSA. If I understand the doctor correct, 40% is the cut off point and I have a 43. Also my colon screening came back with a little blood in it.

I am also looking at the cancers from a unique prospective. Almost every where I look, the medical field is talking about fighting it. What if I want to pass naturally and as soon as possible?

Frankly, I have never been a happy camper. If I could pass away tonight in my sleep that would be fine with me. On the other hand, I am not going to take my own life. And I am definitely into avoiding pain.

If I elect, to live out my days with these cancers rather then fighting them, about how long do I have? What will my life be like? Will there be much pain?

I avoided the excesses of my father. I never drank much and I never smoked. He died of lung cancer. He got along fine until they gave him the chemo and he was bed ridden for a year until his death. He looked like a walking skeleton. Yet somehow, I think if I had my life to live again, and knowing I was going to end up like this... well, I would drink, smoke, whore around, and cuss up a storm. It ain't fair. I have done a reasonable job of maintaining this body. My family history has lots of people living to ripe old ages - over 100 years when our neighbors were only living to 35- 40.

I would rather die doing something I love than go the way my father did. If I stand a chance of being in extreme pain, I would rather be a daredevil while I still can.

Lorelei · New User Joined: 05 Dec 2004 Posts: 7 Location: Florida

You don't say how old you are in your post, but if you want to die peacefully in your sleep, prostate cancer is not the way to go. My husband's uncle died of this and it was not pleasant. It got into the bones in his back, and he was in a lot of pain and paralyzed for the last few months. He had to have surgery just so he could pee cause the cancer blocked him up. The doctors said if they had caught it earlier, he could have had surgery or radiation and been cured. He hated doctors and refused to see one until he was in a lot of pain and by then it was too late. They gave him lots of pain medicine, but it didn't help much. It was sad to see him like that. I hope you will go see your doctor soon and see if they can help you before it is too late.

virbius · Posted: Sat Dec 11, 2004 12:13 pm Post subject: Re: Prostate cancer no way to go

[quote="Lorelei"]You don't say how old you are in your post, but if you want to die peacefully in your sleep, prostate cancer is not the way to go. My husband's uncle died of this and it was not pleasant. It got into the bones in his back, and he was in a lot of pain and paralyzed for the last few months. He had to have surgery just so he could pee cause the cancer blocked him up. The doctors said if they had caught it earlier, he could have had surgery or radiation and been cured. He hated doctors and refused to see one until he was in a lot of pain and by then it was too late. They gave him lots of pain medicine, but it didn't help much. It was sad to see him like that. I hope you will go see your doctor soon and see if they can help you before it is too late.[/quote]

Okay, I am 52. Well, I am seeing the Doctors at the VA. They are slow to schedule, but I will see one on the 20th here and have a colonoscopy scheduled for next month. I am also planning on jumping out of a perfectly good airplane, flyiing an ultra-light around the city, and going out and have my first and probably only good drunk. Heck, I might go across the border to Juarez and have a good old time.
I figure I cannot hurt anything if the old bod is giving out this early in life. I thought I had a good 1/3 of it left.

Lorelei · New User Joined: 05 Dec 2004 Posts: 7 Location: Florida

I'm glad to hear you are following up on things with the VA doctors. Yes, they are slow to get things done, and it is frustrating having to wait when you just want the cancer gone. But please stick with it. You are way too young to be giving up. Your body is not giving out on you. It is just giving you a little wake up call to get on with life and plan how you are going to be spending that 1/3 you have left. I highly recommend jumping out of a perfectly good airplane. Have fun partying in Juarez. Take up a new hobby. Live like every day is your last day. Get busy enjoying yourself. Remember: No day but this day!

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